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Saturday, May 06, 2006

Inspired by my brother to write about myself.
Current mood: depressed

My brother Jeffery wrote about himself on his profile and it has inspired me to write a little about myself and my feelings on a few topics.

I am not the most dependable person I know. I used to be, but I am now only a shell of my former self. I have been burdened, beaten, blown-up, and broken, and I have cracked under the pressure. Sometimes I look at myself now and think of who I used to be and wish that the bomb had killed me. Every time that I put on my uniform its a slap in the face, it is a mockery of who I once was. I am completely heartbroken at the loss of James, Darren, and Kurt. I will never forgive myself for not bringing my boys home. I wonder if I will ever be able to feel love again. I wonder if I will ever be able to feel happiness without the help of alcohol. I agree with Jeffery about what kind of vehicles a man should drive but he should have added a Jeep in there. And I dont mean a soccer mom-mobile Jeep, but a real Jeep. I dont believe anybody should have to defend their lifestyle. I do not believe one man has the right in any sense to tell another man what to do, but some people need to be told how to improve themselves. I am glad the State of Geargia did not let me vote because of my anarchist views because Bush turned out to be full of shit. However, I do have respect for him because he is the President and he acts like a President (unlike Clinton). He does what he thinks is best and says "fuck the critics." I do not have respect for those idiots who drive around with the "He's not my President" bumper stickers because he is, and we as a nation have elected him twice. He is also the President of the countries out there who depend on us to remain countries. Canada, Mexico, and most of South America and Europe Im looking at you. Im tired of hearing other countries in North America and Europe complain about how the US sticks its nose where it doesnt belong. Listen you morons, you enjoy the peace and stability that you do because the US stuck its nose in your business and gave you back your peace and stability. Sometimes I am completely disgusted with my government, because its true motivater has never been whats right or wrong but whats best for big business. The mighty green dollar drives everything in our "democracy." I normally like brunettes better than blondes but short bright blone hair knocks me down. Most of my girlfriends have been brunettes but I would prefer a blonde wife because I want blonde haired blue eyed children. I dont think that will ever be an issue because I dont see myself ever getting married. I dont think it is something that will every be afforded to me. Whats the point anyways? Its not like it is sacred anymore anyways. What can you do when your married that you cant do when your single? I do not think tattoos are sexy or a good idea. Getting someones name tattooed on you is the stupidest thing you can do. I think tattoos look terrible on women. However there are a few select women who have fucking awesome tattoos and broke that mold. I could go on all night but Im tired.

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